In case i get old, and start to reminisce, i suppose this is the only place i can ever come back to to relive those good old days. that is, other than facebook i suppose, so i might as well put some effort into keeping this thing alive.
well, i got it. sorta. sooner rather than later i'm gonna be a full-fledged volunteer at the st andrew's community hospital and won't that be a joy! hahaha, can't wait, and can wait at the same time. i have absolutely no idea what i'm getting myself into, but then again i really want to do something worthwhile and useful, instead of just lazing around the house 24/7 or going out and doing random stuff.
i am also absolutely downright pissed with myself for neglecting my religion and i will just have to get right back down to forging a respectable relationship with a god that has given me so much.
not to mention the countless things i have yet to try: i need to really sleep over at the airport. i know, it sounds a little crazy but hey it's gonna be a real adventure! start dieting like crazy soon too. and exercise. i had hell the other day in training and obviously my arm isn't the cannon it used to be anymore.
slau | 12:12 AM
I HATE movies that tell you "Hey, it's okay to be yourself you don't have to be some other person's definition of perfect," because HELLO NEWSFLASH, this world does not revolve around just you comprende? Paints such a lousy picture of the world that gets so many people disillusioned and nearly had me there. Lucky my years of emotional heartache and rejection have taught me otherwise. HA! SLau 1-0 Hollywood.
Haahahaha who am I kidding.
I wish I could live in a movieworld T_T
slau | 4:18 PM
slau | 3:18 PM
Someone told me today (or yesterday) during prom: guess this is the last time we're gonna be hearing you sing. And right there and then, though it didn't last long, I realised it was gonna be the last time for a lot of things. The last time I went for a flag raising, or woke up at 6 in the morning to go to school, going to the school library, wear school uniforms...
the last time I'm gonna be seeing a lot of friends.
Someone else asked me a few days ago, why bother getting back in touch when we're not gonna have anything to do with each other anymore? I mean, it's terrible to have to just let everything go like this just because we're going out of school. Life is full of choices, and I suppose choosing what to let go of is one of those tough ones we'll have to end up making, since we can't possibly be carrying along all our memories through our lives. There'd just be too much to remember, too much to be thankful for or appreciate.
So it's time to make the tough decisions again. Most of us were spared that decision when we went straight from RI to RI(JC), but there's no two ways about it this time. A lot of us will be going our separate ways, and we'd probably struggle to find anything in common in a few years, maybe even a few months. Even harder would be finding a reason to get together again, other than for the sake of remembrances. Given the nature of our Singaporean lifestyles, that just doesn't cut it anymore these days, even when people are so willing to give up what they've gained during their two years of education in JC.
I've made many a good friends, and lost many a good ones too. It took me awhile to find the people I could trust, and even longer to get them to trust me.
And then what? Well, some of it ended pretty well, or is still going on. Some worked out, for awhile, before it all turned sour for one reason or another, most of the time because I made the wrong damn choices.
Sigh. I guess writing this was really some sort of a mistake. To whoever this is addressed to you probably know what I'm talking about. I'm not sure if what happened during prom was a one-off, and I'm just so confused right now. I'd much rather it end definitely, rather than being kept in the dark.
slau | 12:46 AM
is FKING A!
Rule #1 Cardio
Rule #2 Doubletap
Rule #3 Beware of bathrooms
Rule #4 Seatbelts
Rule #5 No attachments
Rule #15 Know your way out
Rule #17 Don't be a hero
Rule #18 Limber up
Rule #31 Check the back seat
Rule #32 Enjoy the little things
FKIN BADASS!
slau | 10:22 PM
