That's what I am, damn tired. There's no two ways about it, I'm just really damn freaking shag and wiped out. But I can't afford to rest now can I, there's just so much to prove for this exams. I daren't even think of the consequences of me screwing up this time.
Things just get so much more complicated when you fancy someone you're close to; so many more rules come into play, because there's just so much more at stake compared to when you're going after some random girl you just think is pretty. You assume that being a good friend, you'd know everything about the person. But nothing is given when it comes to affection. People turn ugly lots of times, and I'm not sure if it's a good thing or not that it hasn't been her who's taken a turn for the worse, but me.
So now I've just got to put it all aside, for now. Until the time comes when the impending disappointment and misery will not have anything else to take a toll on like studies. But the A's are just so so far away right now...
Well, sucks to me then that you can't choose who you love.
slau | 9:45 PM
