Sometimes it's almost as if she enjoys doing this. I'm sure she knows how much I'm suffering here in silence. I suppose hoping she will one day see through my supposed 'harassment" and take what I say for what it truly is is just wishful dreaming. How can someone be so forgetful as to completely disregard everything that we've done together, even given the misunderstandings that happened in the past.
Seriously, it's the one thing I have failed to come to terms with all this while. It just goes to show how useful I was all this while, that someone like me can just be pushed aside so nonchalantly. Was that the case all this while huh? Well you definitely put on quite a show.
I'm over wallowing in self-pity and disappointment at losing a supposed friend, because obviously that wasn't the case. Obviously I was just trying to be someone I wasn't. I don't like your friends, I don't agree with a lot of your views and opinions, I don't give two shits about what you think about me or any one of my friends.
I'm not the only one who's been making mistakes, because nobody's perfect. Yes you may be able to argue that I'm the one who tore everything down for good, but I believe that whatever I said in the past was with a valid reason, and fuck you for making me feel that I've been making a mess out of this.
FUCK YOU
for bitching about me to your friends, which you DEFINITELY have done. Why create some kind of messed up opinion of me? I haven't even told a single bloody person anything, but you've already gone and probably turned your entire clique against me.
FUCK YOU
Come criticise my colourful language! Give me your best shot! Call your brother! Call your gangster friends! As if I'm supposed to be scared. As if killing me now is going to make my life any worse off.
You obviously never gave me any self-respect, because I was always dispensable. And you never had the fucking guts to admit it either.
well FUCK YOU BITCH.
slau | 12:48 PM
