well fuck me she seems to have taken away more than I realised. I currently have absolutely no balls at all oO
how long, how long?
the world finds so many ways to irritate me nowadays, really. from the observations of kind bystanders I was enlightened today of the fact that I really hate a lot of people. but that brings me back to my lack of a sac because even though I hate lots of people, I daren't do anything about it except bitch. and bitch. and bitch somemore.
well pardon me for being lazy but I do not have a sadistic inclination to go beating up everyone I dislike and getting some hurt back in return. I may not be very well refined physically but a softball bat to the head will do miles more damage than any knuckle sandwich ever could. I just choose not to.
but at what cost? To get consistently pissed off every day? Is it really worth it? Sometimes I just marvel at the self-confidence of certain individuals. To them, one word always works, always gets the message across. whereas for me, I have to actually find a way of expressing what I really feel, instead of saying "fuck" all the time.
For example, I can't just say "fuck" when I mean "please get lost because I put my stuff on this table long before you came here and hence it is very inappropriate of you to sit here at my table with my stuff still on it and do your work and deprive me of a space I feel I rightfully deserve". See, you can't think that in a split second. so instead, I just back off. pussy for you slau.
I really don't think I'm that big a loser, honestly. I'm sure I can identify lots more who think they're cool but would actually be better off sucking it than I am. honestly, dipshits who walk around the library showing off their random intellectual capabilities to others who may be a little bit off-tangent academics-wise REALLY NEED TO GET A CLUE. IT'S IRRITATING. PEOPLE WANT TO STUDY. PEOPLE DON'T LIKE FEELING STUPID. WOULD YOU LIKE FEELING LIKE THE DIPSHIT YOU REALLY ARE? HUH? FUCK YOU!
okay, nvm. enter shikari.
slau | 9:39 PM
